Ill-Made Knight: Part Three
By Rahsaan Footman

Previously on Pendragon...

Macbeth: "Merlin’s magic was stronger than
everything, except the human heart."
-- Lighthouse in the Sea of Time

~ Bamburgh Castle, shortly after dawn ~

Elaine's lips pressed firmly upon Arthur's. She leaned further, deepening the kiss. It had been a long time for both of them, too long by half. For her it was a year, for him a millennium and a half, but they both had came to this same point. The point where their lips touched and their hearts opened.

Arthur pulled away just a little. Elaine withdrew the rest of the way. Smiling, Elaine whispered a 'whoa'. The kiss was so intense; she had to catch her breath. Her arms were still wrapped around Arthur's neck. Arthur's were stiffly at his side.

Elaine playfully reached up to wipe off some lipstick from Arthur's lips. Arthur flinched, then separated from her. He left, no, fled out of the room without a word.

"Arthur?" Elaine sprinted out the door after him. "Arthur? What's wrong?"

She caught up with him a few paces down the hall, then turned him around to face her.

"What is it, Arthur? Was I out of line? Is there someone else?"

"Yes," Arthur said quickly. "No... I don't know."

"Well, thanks for clearing that up," Elaine frowned.

Arthur continued walking away from her, but Elaine moved to block his path.

"Answer me, Arthur. A moment ago, we were tongue-wrestling, and now you're acting like I'm a gorgon or something."

"Tongue-wrestling?" Arthur repeated the unfamiliar phrase.

"Arthur! Talk!" Elaine drew herself up with arms crossed.

Arthur nodded, then began slowly. "No, you weren't out of line and no, there is no one else. But it just isn't right."

"Give me one good reason why not?" Elaine challenged.

Arthur was stumped. There was nothing preventing him being with her. Just a small voice in the back of his head telling him this wasn't right. Arthur looked her over, trying look anywhere but her eyes. Then his eyes fixed on the arms folded across his chest.

He grabbed her right hand and held it up. A golden wedding band shone in the morning light, mocking her. Elaine stood in the hallway stunned silent, while Arthur retreated to the kitchen. Frantically, Elaine tried to pull off the ring. Not for Arthur's sake but for her own. But the ring wouldn't budge. Elaine slumped back against a wall. This was the last time the past would ruin her life, she promised herself.

Arthur grabbed a bowl, some milk, and a small box of cereal with a colorful tiger on the front. He sat at the table farthest from everyone, his back to the wall. Elaine came in a couple minutes later. She sat at the opposite end of the room from Arthur, breakfasting on half a cantaloupe, cottage cheese and cup of skim milk. The meal was a torturous affair: Arthur and Elaine each tried hard to ignore the other, while at the same time trying equally hard to watch the other.

Arthur finished first, then departed for his room. He sat on his bed. Arthur couldn't stop thinking about Elaine and couldn't stop cursing himself for how he acted. Why had he pushed her away? He wanted to believe it was because she was married, but deep down he knew that was just a way to stay safe. There was more to it than that. The past, ~his~ past, told him that love was a vulnerability, one he could ill afford. But how could he remain human if he refused to love?

Cavall and Griff were gone, but Griff had left the Iris journal. Arthur grabbed it and laid on the bed. He needed something to get his mind off 'her' and the questions burning in his heart. Arthur poured himself into the reading, hoping to forget.

* * * * *

The Flower of Chivalry was in full bloom. Lancelot's fame had grown exponentially since his rescue of several knights from Sir Turquine. Now, people cheered loudest for him during the jousts. Ladies threw their favors at him during every in the tournaments. His biggest fans were the knights of the Round Table. The honors he brought back from each quest grew with his fame. And while knights like Sir Agravaine thought his ego bordered on arrogance, others like Sir Gareth felt it was well deserved.

Heralds sung countless tales of his valor. So many, that even Lancelot began believing their words. The humble self-effacing knight of his youth was slowly being replaced by an overconfident one.

At this moment, Lancelot was patrolling the countryside. He shifted in his full armor regalia as he crossed the bridge of Corbin. The padding underneath itched and the armor weighed fifty stone riding and seventy stones standing. It was also hot and unpleasant, but he wanted to give the townsfolk the best impression of a Knight of the Round Table. His arrival wasn't quite what he expected.

The people of Corbin milled about listlessly. Occasionally, a child might laugh or a couple of brothers shout in play, but then parents would quickly hush them. Lancelot’s arrival didn't elicit the usual praises and hosannas he'd grown accustomed to. At first, they stared at the knight, then a few lined the street Lancelot trotted along. Whispers began to travel through the village, and soon throngs of people joined those staring at the knight. Lancelot felt a little unnerved at the quiet masses watching him. They neither cheered nor shouted, nor even jeered at him.

The knight knew something was going on, and he was just about to ask when he felt a rapping on his shin plate. Lancelot looked down and saw a small boy look up at him and smile.

"Are you here to slay the dragon?" he said before his mother snatched him back.

"Dragon? There's a dragon terrorizing your village?"

An elderly man emerged from the multitudes. "Please, sir knight. Don't get involved. We don't want any trouble."

"Sounds like you already have that," Lancelot said as he swung out of his saddle. "Why haven't you sent for help?"

"We did," the elder spoke up. "A knight came here the week before, but he fled and we were left with a twice-enraged monster. We don't want that happening again."

"It won't." Lancelot drew his sword. "I shall slay this monster."

"There's no need," another elder interjected. "The beast has already been appeased."

Lancelot suddenly felt uneasy. "What do you mean, 'appeased'?"

"The lord of the land offered his daughter as a virgin sacrifice. We haven't heard from the beast since, so we assume it is appeased."

"What?" Lancelot was appalled. "A sacrifice? Where can I find this dragon!"

* * * * *

Lancelot left his mount at the edge of the cemetery, as he entered the graveyard and headed for the abandoned church on the other side. It was still unbelievable to Lancelot that the town would sacrifice an innocent child to get a few days’ peace. What would happen when the dragon grew restless again? How many more children would they sacrifice? One, ten, a thousand? They should have fought, fought to the end.

And yet Lancelot couldn't fault them too harshly. They were just simple farmers and the like, not brave knights.

As Lancelot approached the church doors, he thought of the outrage of having such a creature as a dragon in a place of worship. He promised himself to bring the foul beast’s head back to Camelot and to wear its teeth as a keepsake. And his thoughts also turned to the fact that it had been ages since a knight fought a dragon. This would be Lancelot's first, and if successful, the encounter would be an epic the bards would sing of for seasons to come...

Entering the tiny cathedral, Lancelot unsheathed his sword. He scanned the interior, but didn't see anything other than the pews laying scattered about the stone floor. Lancelot moved some benches out of his way, slowly moving down the nave. At the crossing, where the nave, the transepts and the apse formed the junction of a 't', the area was spread clear, with pews piled up shoulder high around the clear space.

Lancelot heard a muffled crying. Climbing over the debris, he saw a young woman bound and gagged in the center of the clearing. Her tear-reddened eyes looked up at the knight, and she tried to shout something, but the gag muffled her words. Lancelot dropped on the other side of the barrier, removed the girl's gag and started working on her binds.

"Who are you?" the redhead gasped.

"Lancelot du Lac, from Camelot," Lancelot said as he cut through her wrist binds.

"No!" the woman tried to stop him. "The dragon will destroy Corbin if it's not appeased!"

"No, it won't. I'll see to that."

"Braver men than you have said as much," the woman whispered.

"Braver? I doubt it." Lancelot cut her feet free.

The woman was rubbing her wrists to get some feeling back in them when they both heard a low, rolling growl. Lancelot and the maiden both turned as the dragon appeared from the darkness.

Immediately, Lancelot could see that this was no dragon, but ‘merely’ a wyvern. As the creature emerged from the back of the church, the two humans could make out its features. A serpent head flicked a flame-red tongue. A long sinuous neck followed, widening into the trunk of its body. The wyvern moved on its two legs, its tail thrashing with agitation.

As he watched the creature begin to scan the building, Lancelot was drawn back to a conversation he’d once had with Merlin on the subject. Wyverns, the mage had said, differed from their cousins, the dragons, in many ways. Most telling was that dragons had six limbs; four legs and a powerful set of wings. Wyverns were bipedal, with two small vestigial wings.

But the most important difference between the two species, Merlin had said, was intelligence. A dragon was highly intelligent, whereas a wyvern had only three modes of thought: eat, attack and reproduce. And it engaged in all three with a ferocity that made it very dangerous to anyone facing it.

"Get out of here. Now!" Lancelot ordered the young woman.

Any further ideas of self-sacrifice fled from the girl's mind when she glimpsed the fearsome creature. She started climbing the tossed benches, while Lancelot brought up his sword to face the monster.

The wyvern stalked out of the ambulatory and glared at the two people in its domain. It saw them as food, but food that would fight. The wyvern hissed, flapping its small wings irately as it made its challenge. Then, a moment later, the wyvern's hiss turned into a high pitched shriek and it attacked.

The wyvern sprinted up quickly up the apse, and in a flash, it leaped into the air, sailing over the rubble and pews to clutching the column behind Lancelot. With a hiss, it sprang from the column at the knight, who turned just as the monster knocked him off his feet. Lancelot lost grip of his sword, and he felt the weight of the animal on him, its sharp claws raking across his breastplate. But Lancelot's arms were still free and he landed a right to the monster's eye causing it to howl in pain and roll off him.

Lancelot tried getting up, but seventy stones’ worth of armor made that next to impossible. The best he could was roll over and get his feet under him, before the wyvern leapt onto his back, slamming the knight into the floor again. The wyvern was about to clap down Lancelot's neck, when a board smacked it upside the head.

The wyvern turned, just as the woman swung again, and it ducked. Hissing with rage, the wyvern chased after her. The redhead ran behind a column and then shuffled back and forth keep the column between her and the monster.

Meanwhile, Lancelot had managed to recover. He undid the buckles to his breastplate. He would undo the rest later; right now the damsel needed him.

He searched for the wyvern with his eyes, and then found it by the column, still snapping at the young woman. Lancelot tackled the wyvern, but the monster merely kicked the knight, sending him clear across the cathedral to crash into the pulpit.

The wyvern turned back and looked for the woman, but she had disappeared. No matter; it'd pick up her scent later. There was still Lancelot, who was out cold.

The wyvern went over to the fallen knight, but as it neared him, a rock hit its flank. It turned and saw the woman again. She stood atop the wreckage throwing rocks and pieces of wood at it. The wyvern charged her, but she quickly dropped back behind the barrier. Stymied, the wyvern started back toward Lancelot until another piece of wood hit the back of its head. It turned again toward the girl, but didn't advance. She was just an annoyance to it, while the knight was an easy kill.

The wyvern walked over to Lancelot, and was about to rip out the knight's throat, when he came to. The wyvern clamped down on his gauntlet-covered forearm, squeezing on the armor in an attempt to taste the flesh beneath. Lancelot let out a cry as the teeth bent the armor, digging into his arm. He stared into the creature's eyes, the color of burning pitch. Desperate, Lancelot returned the kick that the wyvern had given him earlier, putting a boot in the wyvern's midsection.

The wyvern shrieked, releasing Lancelot's arm, and allowing the knight to roll out from under it and get to his feet. He needed his sword, but any weapon would do at this point. While the wyvern recovered, Lancelot ran for the crossing to find his sword.

"Over here!" the woman shouted. She was hiding in an alcove and as he watched, she lifted his sword high. Using both hands, she swung it to Lancelot.

The sword tumbled end over end in a low arc, threatening to fall short. But, Lancelot reached over the pile of broken benches and grabbed it by the hilt. In a fluid move, Lancelot spun around to face the wyvern right behind him, its fangs bared.

Lancelot continued turning as he brought his sword around. The blade made whistling sound as it sliced the air, then cut through skin, muscle, sinew and bone. The wyvern's head still bore a malefic visage as it separated from the rest of its body.

Lancelot, still carried by momentum, tripped on his own feet and crashed to the floor. The wyvern's body fell next to him, the head bouncing off the ground last. As it lay there, the serpent's body pumped black ichor that covered the floor. Lancelot quickly got up before the blood soaked him, and nearly jumped back when he saw the wyvern's face glaring at him. It took a moment to register that the head was resting on the pews, its eyes staring lifelessly back at him, and another moment to realize that he had survived and slain the monster.

“Oh, thank you Sir Lancelot," he heard the woman say as she run up to him and leapt into his arms. She buried her head into his neck and, reluctantly, Lancelot hugged her back. After a few moments had passed, Lancelot pulled away.

"I won only because of your aid. What is your name?"

"Elaine," the young woman said, smiling. "I am the daughter of King Pelles."

Lancelot and Elaine returned to Corbin triumphant. The news had spread like wildfire. The 'dragon' was dead. Their town was safe. A great feast was prepared to celebrate their deliverance, and Lancelot was to be the guest of honor. But the knight respectfully declined the invitation; Elaine had wanted to go tell her father the good news personally, and it was the least he could do to take her home, in gratitude for her aid.

On the way, Lancelot stopped by a river, to wash up before meeting the King. As he knelt by the river, he first removed his chewed gauntlet. It was more than chewed, though; the armguard had been bitten through. Two rows of teeth marked either side of his arm; bright red welts marked where the wyvern's teeth bit through steel and chainmail.

As he looked at it, Lancelot shivered, contemplating what could have been. He pushed it out of his mind as he removed his tunic and dunked his head into the river. Then he doused himself with water, washing the slippery wyvern spit off his arms and sweat off his upper body. Now feeling refreshed, Lancelot looked for his tunic, but it wasn't on the tree branch where he’d left it.

"Looking for this?" Elaine offered the knight his shirt, stifling a girlish giggle as she took in the muscular figure of the knight. Lancelot took his shirt and pulled it on. Returning to his steed, he packed his battered armor. Elaine approached the knight shyly.

"I didn't mean to embarrass you," she apologized.

"I'm not embarrassed. Come on, we should be on our way." Lancelot helped her up on the horse.

She visibly blushed as he lifted her up. The ride back was like a dream for Elaine. As she rode sidesaddle in Lancelot's on their way to her father's castle, she couldn’t help but think she was living a minstrel's song. A brave knight had come forth, vanquishing a monster and rescuing her. Now, they were going to see her father, and if the rest of the song held true, they'd wed and live happily ever after. Elaine was of marrying age and Lancelot was handsome beyond words. In her mind, how could anything go wrong?

Lancelot wasn't blind to Elaine's looks, either. He noticed how comely she was, but he had no romantic intentions toward her. His heart belonged to Guinevere. He could never love anyone else. Still, Elaine was lovely to look at...

Suddenly, his arm itched fiercely and he clutched at it. The redness had spread, growing into angry red circles and it felt like a tiny fire ablaze in each welt. As he was concerning himself with this, he heard Elaine sigh deeply. Lancelot looked down and felt her leaning against his chest. Then he noticed that his arms were wrapped around her. She must have thought it was a subtle embrace. Lancelot quickly untangled his arms, hoping she would get the hint, that there was nothing between them. Meanwhile, the pain in his arm subsided to a dull throb: annoying, but tolerable. He just needed some rest.

Elaine's father was a warrior; stolid, grim-faced, a rock. King Pelles met her and Lancelot in his castle’s courtyard, saluting the knight formally as they rode up to him. Elaine jumped down from the charger and hugged her father fiercely. King Pelles' face didn't change from his grim mien, as he stiffly hugged his daughter back. Pelles asked about her health then sent her into the castle to prepare for dinner when he learned that she was well. Lancelot noticed that he didn't act like he had sent his daughter to be a wyvern's breakfast this morning; it seemed to the knight that Pelles showed little emotion, and none of it in affection.

Elaine gave Lancelot one last look as she entered the castle, then disappeared through the front door. Pelles only a raised an eyebrow at the exchange. Lancelot approached him, unsheathing his sword. Then he saluted the king and presented his sword to Pelles as a sign of submission. King Pelles took the sword, then returned it to Lancelot, completing the ritual.

"You have saved my daughter and my land from a great evil," Pelles explained. "So you are a welcome guest in my home."

With the formalities out of the way, both could be at ease with each other. Pelles noticed the battered armor on Lancelot's steed.

"My blacksmith can see to your mail," he offered. "Damaged fighting that beast no doubt. Tell me, what became of the monster?"

"I was a pain in its neck. So I removed it, the neck I mean," Lancelot quipped.

Pelles laughed, a loud booming sound. "Well said, my boy, well said." Swapping jokes, Pelles lead Lancelot into the castle. Pelles was a tall man with a long face, his build muscular from years of campaigns and warfare. Lancelot soon learned there were three things Pelles loved: his daughter, a good joke and a good drink. Evidence of the second and third appeared in the numerous vineyards surrounding the castle and the amiable nature of the guards in the castle of the dour man.

Pelles personally led Lancelot to his chambers, and then closed the door after notifying the knight of that evening’s feast. Lancelot was about to rest when he gasped in pain again. The pain in his arm had gone from a dull, aching throb to a muscle-twisting pain. Rest, he told himself as he tried to fight down the pain; he needed rest. It took some doing, but he managed to fall asleep despite the agony he was going through.

When he woke up, hours later, he felt a bit warm, but he could feel that the pain was gone. That was all that mattered to him right now.

The main hall of King Pelles’ castle glowed bright from scores of candles and the six hearths roaring with a high blaze. King Pelles, Princess Elaine, and Lancelot all sat at the head of a large table set in the middle of the room. Pelles' retainers and liege men filled the hall, each praising Sir Lancelot, their deliverer. Jugglers and troubadours entertained everyone with their antics, while the jester was exceedingly clever telling jokes and anecdotes.

Sweat glistened on everyone's face from the heat. The autumn night had a chill to it, but nothing warranting every hearth afire, which was a concession to their guest of honor. But Lancelot was not sweating from the heat. Rather, he felt terribly cold. His right arm no longer throbbed or itched. In fact he hadn't felt his arm since sunset and he was so relieved that it no longer bothered him, that he forgot about the wounds he’d suffered at the wyvern’s hand.

Pelles, a man who loved his wine, liberally dosed Lancelot with his own vintage. By the time Lancelot excused himself to bed, five bottles circled his plate like tiny sentries. Flushed from all the wine, Lancelot stumbled back to his room, finding it eventually with the help of a page. Even then, it was a difficult feat, what with the walls and floor spinning around. As he entered the room, he closed the door behind him and stared at the bed, the empty bed. Tears welled up as he realized how alone he was.

"Guinevere," he whispered. "Oh, my sweet Guinevere."

Elaine was with her lady-in-waiting, Dame Brisen, preparing for sleep. The older lady brushed the princess's hair as Elaine told her all about Lancelot. The princess sighed when describing his eyes and his smile. He was so handsome and so strong; Elaine was sure they'd be a perfect match.

"You're certainly taken by this man," Brisen commented.

"He's handsome and courageous,” Elaine replied. “What's not to like?"

"I know the feeling. I was in love like that once, actually three times." Brisen patted Elaine's shoulder.

"Really?"

"Don't sound so surprised," Brisen went on. "I was young and in love, still am. The body may have aged, but this heart still beats as fiercely, especially for 'him'. He was a wandering knight making his way in the world. I was a serving maid to the lady of the manor. That night I snuck away to his room and..."

"... And?" Elaine prompted.

"That's not for your delicate ears, missy," Brisen said as she finished brushing the princess’ hair, adding a light tap in rebuke for Elaine's prying. Soon, the lady in waiting departed, leaving Elaine to presumably go to bed.

But Elaine was well beyond the age to be tucked into bed. She’d really just wanted someone to talk to when she’d called Brisen to brush her hair. And their talk had now given Elaine an idea. She opened the door and looked around. No one was in the hall. On slippered feet, she sneaked out of her chambers and went towards the room of her father’s guest.

"Oh my Guinevere, why can't I love you?" Lancelot wept in the dark confines of his room. "It's all Arthur's fault! Curse him for marrying you before we met! Curse him for taking you away from me! But,...” Lancelot's voice softened from its earlier malicious tone, “I love Arthur. He is a great man. He saw promise in me before any did. How can I hate him? Oh, what a wretch I am!"

"Guinevere, I wish we could be together," Lancelot cried.

Then he heard a knock on the door. "Guinevere, beloved. Sweet rose, you've come to answer my prayers," Lancelot whispered hopefully. In a louder voice he commanded, "Entrez vous!"

"Lancelot?" Elaine slowly entered the dark room. Light from the hallway made a long rectangle of brightness into the bedchamber. Elaine neared the edge of light, then swung the door closed, taking with it the light.

A pair of hands stole around her in a passionate embrace. A pair of lips brushed against hers. "My beloved, you came to me," Lancelot's whispered in her ear. Elaine felt the warmth of his breath and the heat from his body. It was like he was on fire.

"Lancelot," she sighed before a finger buttoned her lips.

"Say no more. Just for tonight, be with me like we were always meant to," Lancelot lightly kissed Elaine, and she returned it with passionate ardor.

* * * * *

A forceful knock brought Arthur back to the present. He squeezed through his cubbyhole of a room, and as he reached the door, he hoped it was Elaine. He wanted to apologize, set things right with her. But instead, he encountered the ascetic Mr. Daniels.

"You're awake. Good," Mr. Daniels noted. "We have a tour group arriving shortly. They're members of a quilting circle. I thought you might give them a tour of the tapestries in the castle."

Judging by his tone, this was more an order than a request. Arthur felt like refusing. From the grumbling the other scholars and staff made, Daniels was just itching to be taken down a peg, but now wasn't the right time. Arthur nodded acceptance of the caretaker's order.

He hastily showered and dressed, and met the quilting circle by the main gate. The bus deposited fifty older women and departed for the bus parking lot. Arthur fixed a pleasant smile on his face and welcomed them to Bamburgh Castle.

It was fortunate Arthur was a king, because he made a lousy tour guide. Part of it was because he didn't know much about tapestries and even less about quilting. What little he did was 1500 years out-of-date. It didn’t help that the old women constantly questioned him on this waft or weave and how one hung a tapestry on stone walls. Arthur did know where all the tapestries were in the castle, though, so he wasn't completely in over his head.

He was leading the group of quilters through the main gallery hall when he spotted Elaine. She hastily turned to avoid Arthur, but when she noticed the gaggle of elderly women following him, she stopped and turned to watch. A bemused smile crossed her lips as Arthur tried his best to answer half a dozen questions.

"I'm sorry madam, I don't know if they used sepia thread back then," Arthur deflected.

"Well, how did they get such a dark brown, without sepia," the leader of the quilters continued grilling Arthur.

"Oak galls." Elaine offered. She wore black pants, a purple blouse and a black vest with violet embroidery.

"Excuse me." The octogenarian turned to Elaine.

"It was common to boil oak galls to create darker hues. The colors gain a muddier texture," Elaine explained. This satisfied the woman, and she turned to confer with her compatriots. Arthur gave Elaine a look of immense gratitude.

She smiled in kind, "You know, Mr. Daniels is setting up lunch in the gardens. It should be ready by now."

The mention of food brought cheerful noises from the ladies. Arthur and Elaine guided them through the halls to the waiting pavilion tents outside. Arthur mouthed a 'thank you' to Elaine as he took the quilters to the buffet, and they left the guests to their lunch. Then Arthur and Elaine hurried back into the castle before Mr. Daniels could give them some other task to perform.

"Elaine, I am in your debt," Arthur smiled. "I would rather face an army than those ladies again."

"That's nothing, you should have been here a week ago when the reporter from 'Antiquities Today' did a piece here. I felt like I was back taking college midterms. He grilled me with so many questions I thought my head would explode," Elaine shrugged.

An uncomfortable silence followed. Neither one knew what to do or say to bridge the gulf growing between them. Then Elaine courageously took a gamble.

"Look, Arthur, I'm sorry if I was ... too forward this morning. I shouldn't have put you on the spot. And I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was married."

"There's nothing to apologize about," Arthur kept his eyes to the floor. "Truth to tell, I feel some of the same things you do."

"Some?" Elaine asked gauging his words.

"It's not just my feelings for you. There's more to it than that," Arthur continued. "There are things about me that you don't know, might not accept, maybe not even believe. It's better if you don't get involved with me."

"I'll decide what's 'good for me', thank you very much," Elaine's eyes flashed with defiance. Before Arthur could speak again, she shot another question. "Have you committed any crimes?"

"No," Arthur answered impulsively.

"Killed anyone?"

"Only in battle," said Arthur with a tinge of regret.

"Are you married?" Elaine asked. His head snapped up. The question struck Arthur like a lightning bolt.

"No, I'm a widower," Arthur said with a finality that ended all other questions.

Elaine moved closer to him, wrapping her arms around his waist. "Then I know all that I need to know for now. The rest can come in its own time. Arthur, I care about you; that much I know. And I think you care about me too. Am I mistaken?"

There was such love and hope in her eyes, it tugged at Arthur's heart. But did he have any claim on her? Sadly, the answer was no. She was married and his life was far too strange to drag someone else into it. He had to push her away.

"Tell me about your husband," Arthur said, bringing up the thorny subject.

Elaine's face clouded over, and there was something familiar to the sadness Arthur saw in her eyes. It didn't seem foreign to him. Then he recognized it. ~She still loves him,~ he realized. This should have made his course clearer, but instead the king felt worse. Instead of pulling free, he felt himself sinking deeper into this entanglement.

"It's a long story, but here's what's important." Elaine drew Arthur into an empty study so they could talk in private. "My husband and I have been separated for a year. During that time, we haven't resolved our differences."

"You still wear his ring," Arthur pointed out.

"It doesn't matter," Elaine tried to reassure Arthur.

"It matters to me," Arthur argued. "While you wear that, you are another man's wife. I won't be an adulterer."

Arthur got up and left. Elaine tried to grab his arm, but he eluded her grasp, quickly disappearing down the hall. She called after him, but he didn't stop. For a moment, she thought about chase him down again, but she knew he needed to be alone.

She knew she also needed to be alone for a bit as well. Entereing a study, she sank into an overstuffed chair, then closed her eyes to squeeze out the tears. She hadn't felt such heartache since her school days. She knew Arthur was trying to do the honorable thing, and that only increased his appeal in her eyes.

Arthur was definitely a man from the age of chivalry. He had a personal code and he lived by it, even if it meant denying his happiness. Very different from the world Elaine came from. The men around her husband saw marriage only as a way of marking territory. If a young woman caught their eye, they didn't think twice about taking her as a second wife.

"Except Hector," she corrected herself. Her husband wasn't like that. Before they’d wed, he’d told her that he had loved someone deeply, but that she had died some years before and he had moved on. The heartache in him was so great, he could never find joy in an affair. And that was the problem. When Elaine looked into his eyes she could see love in them only for this lost love, not her. How could she compete with a ghost for her husband's love?

"You're always first in the boss' heart," a grave voice replied to Elaine's thoughts.

Elaine's eyes snapped open. Sitting across from her in the other overstuffed armchair was her bodyguard, Norman Dent. For security reasons, Hector's 'business' had issued her a bodyguard. She didn't have anything to do with the 'business', and she hadn't wanted a guard, but Elaine had had no say in the matter. Since her honeymoon, she had been Hector's wife, not her own person. That was what Elaine hated the most, and her hatred showed as she glared at Norman.

Even sitting down, Norman's head peaked over the tall backed chair. Quite easily 6' 9'', Norman wore a hand tailored, stylish pale blue, double-breasted suit, that covered a muscular frame. He had a chiseled face with a powerful jawbone covered with a square russet beard. His face always looked grim; when angered, it deepened into a silent scowl. When he was happy (a rare occasion) he cracked a small Buddha smile.

At the moment, he was midway between grim and a scowl. Anyone else might have been intimidated, but Elaine had known him for more than fifteen years, so she didn't bat as much as an eyelash.

"I thought you’d left," Elaine commented casually.

"My job is to protect you," Norman stated.

"And we all know how much protection I need from paintings and tour groups," Elaine added sarcastically.

"Not from them. Your new friend."

"Arthur? What do you know?" Elaine was fearful for him, but didn't show it. Norman wouldn't hesitate to use force if he felt she were in danger. Since he hadn't yet, that meant he was still unsure about Arthur.

"Arthur Jones doesn't exist," Norman reported.

~Doesn’t exist?~ Elaine thought to herself. ~Well, his kiss certainly felt real.~ Aloud she asked, "What are you talking about?"

"I did some checking. Mr. Jones has the standard ID, bank accounts, and credentials for anyone skimming the surface. But there is no record of him at any university: no tenure, no research post, not even a canceled check from a Bursar's office. There's no medical record of this ‘Arthur Jones’, from physicals to polio vaccinations. And what it means is that your ‘Arthur’ either popped up out of nowhere or he isn't who he says he is."

Elaine remembered what Arthur had said a few moments before, ~There are things about me that you don't know, might not accept, maybe not even believe.~ But he’d said he wasn't married; hadn't killed anyone in cold blood. What could he be hiding that was worse?

Norman leaned forward, "I know you are fond of him, but he may be a danger to you."

"If he is, I'll handle it," Elaine said defiantly.

"Sometimes I think you do this just to be contrary," Norman shook his head.

Elaine smiled. "Maybe I do take a perverse pleasure in being stubborn. But that has nothing to do with you." Elaine got up to leave.

"What about the Boss?"

At the mention of her husband, Elaine stopped in her tracks. She turned to face Norman. "What about him?"

"He still loves you."

"He still loves 'her'." Elaine's voice chilled. "And I won't be second place in his heart. Tell him that!" Elaine left quickly before tears could form on her face. Romance had a way of treating her like a chew toy. On the one hand, she had an enigma who wasn't what he seemed to be; on the other, there was Hector. Someone she loved but who she knew didn’t return that love equally. She couldn't deal with Hector, but she could do something about Arthur. Besides, he’d promised to read some more of the Journals of Sir Lancelot. This might be a chance for him to open to her. She wasn't going to pry, but she needed to know if he was hiding something dark or painful.

* * * * *

When Lancelot awoke, he found he couldn't move his right side. Panic welled up in him as he struggled to move. But at last the weight disappeared, and relief washed over him. That relief turned to cold shock when he heard a light voice sigh in waking. Fearfully, Lancelot turned to see Elaine in his bed.

Lancelot half stumbled, half ran through the forest. Morning light streamed into the woods, and birds of the dawn chirped happily. But all this was lost on Lancelot as he crashed through forest, blood pounding in his ears, despair and guilt preying upon his heart. He had betrayed his one true love.

He couldn't recall the night, it was a blur of dark and gray. He did recall that at one point Guinevere had appeared in his chambers, but that was all. How had Elaine wound up in his bed? How did all of this happen?

His muscles burned, but not the hot fire of exertion from his flight into the woods. It was a cold fire that was bringing pain to his body. Sweat chilled as it ran down his face, mixing with his tears, and he thought the pain a fitting punishment for breaking Guinevere's trust.

He let the pain go unchecked. The spots began to flash in his eyesight and the world began to spin around him uncontrollably. Deep in the forest, he stumbled over a log, falling into a shallow pond. Exhausted and heartsick, Lancelot remained in the water, his consciousness slipping away...

Only the birds and squirrels nearby noticed what happened next. A wind blew ripples across the pond, ripples which flowed out from the pond’s center, broke over Lancelot, and then returned to their origin. Slowly, a hand emerged from the water, followed by an arm clad in shimmering, fishscale samite. The silver haired Lady of the Lake rose from the water, a sad, sympathetic look coloring her face. She knelt by the fallen knight and brushed back a few soaked locks of hair.

"My poor boy." She picked up his arm, and then noticed the red welts on it. "Wyvernsblight!" she breathed in shock. Lily quickly touched his forehead, and felt the burn of fever. He looked terribly ill.

There was a cure for wyvernsblight, she knew, if there was still time. It was dangerous, but she'd do anything to save her son. She prepared to take him to the one place that could help, her homeland. And so the Lady of the Lake took Sir Lancelot beneath the waves to Avalon.

Lancelot never knew how lucky he was. Wyvernsblight came from the bacteria that accumulated in the mouth of a wyvern after eating carrion. Typically, when a wyvern actually chose to attack a live target, it would only bite the prey, then run back and wait. Within an hour, the blight would kill the victim and rot the carcass, thus providing a new source of carrion for the wyvern’s appetite. But only a tiny amount of blight had infected Lancelot, so its effects were slower on him. It gave the Lady of the Lake time to get him Avalon.

Lily placed a cool towel on Lancelot's burning forehead. He had remained unconscious when she’d brought him to Avalon, and now he mumbled insensibly from the delirium brought about by the disease. Lily gave the knight some willow bark tea to ease his aches. He coughed it up at first, it tasted so bitter, but she finally got him to keep it down. It would make him comfortable, but wouldn’t cure him. She needed to go to Oberon's Palace to get a cure, but she was reluctant to leave Lancelot here. Neither Lord Oberon nor Queen Titania had much love for humans, and there was no telling what her brothers and sisters might do if they found this particular human here. They might turn him into a gargoyle, just for laughs. Or enchant him to fall in love with his reflection. While he was on Avalon, Lancelot would be in danger.

~Better to be in danger than to be dead,~ Lily reminded herself. ~He needs those apples.~

Lily took a look at her work, and then nodded to herself. Lancelot was safe for now in this sylvan glade by the lake. Across the water she could see the portico with its marble benches and circular reflecting pool. Those who came here would be interested in seeing themselves in the mirror-like pool, or engaging in a romantic tryst; they wouldn't be looking for a sickly knight. He'd be safe, she hoped. The Lady of the Lake kissed Lancelot's fevered brow, promising to return soon, and then vanished.

A long history had grown up around serpents and apples. In this case, the apples of Avalon were a panacea for wyvernsblight. Lily returned from the orchards with a basket full of ripe red and gold apples, and as soon as she had peeled and cut one of them, she fed him a slice. The juice wetted Lancelot’s parched lips, as the tiny sliver slid down his throat. At first, there was no noticeable change. But Lily didn't fool herself; it'd take time for her boy to recover. In the meantime, she kept feeding him the apples in every form imaginable.

For the first couple of days, he ate only small portions of the apple and a lot of willowbark-apple seed tea. By the end of the week, Lancelot was still unconscious, but his fever had broken and his delirium had ended. She started feeding him pressed apple juice in the morning and mulled apple cider in the evening. The meals in-between consisted of an herbal broth with just a bit of apple peel in it.

By the end of a fortnight, a fully recovered Lancelot opened his eyes. "Where am I?" he asked as he stared up into the forest canopy.

"You are awake," Lily said as she came to sit next to him. Lancelot looked up and smiled at her.

"Mother?" he asked; then his face fell. "But not my mother are you?"

Lily closed her eyes, but nodded. "I am not your mother by blood, but that does not mean I do not love you."

"I think I understand," Lancelot said as he reached up and caressed her face. He propped himself on his elbows and looked around. "Where am I? This doesn't look like the Lake."

"You are on Avalon, my son," Lily answered. "It was necessary to bring you to the cure."

"Cure?"

Lily showed Lancelot his right arm. The red welts that once dotted his arm were now tiny scabs.

"You were sick with wyvernsblight. The apples I fed you cured you."

"So that is why you have been in and out of the palace orchards," a rich voice spoke from behind. Lily turned around, and stared in shock at the visage of Lord Oberon.

Lancelot didn't know who this person was, but the blue skin and pointed ears made him out to be one of the fay, and the way this stranger distressed Lily didn't make him out to be a friendly one.

"My L-l-l-lord," the Lady of the Lake stammered.

Oberon raised his hand, cutting her off. "Answer our question. Is this mortal the reason for your absence from court?"

Lily stood between her foster son and her king. "It is my lord."

"And you have brought this mortal creature on our isle without our consent?" Oberon continued.

"Yes," Lily answered, "I brought my 'son' here to save him."

"Your son?" Oberon barked a laugh. "Like Nimue? Another halfling? By another father?"

"Father and mother," Lily felt her face flush with what her king implied.

"She is my mother by love," Lancelot said as he came to stand by Lily, an arm around her shoulder. He glared defiantly at Oberon. Lily reached up, placing her hand on her ‘son’s’ shoulder.

Oberon regarded the knight with only a raised eyebrow, and Lancelot took the opening to defend his mother. "Mother is a kind, gentle woman. She brought me here to save my life. I won't let you talk about her like she's some harlot."

"Such ill manners," Oberon waved a dismissive hand. The knight rocked on his heels for a moment, then fell back onto his cot.

"Lancelot!" Lily cried. She dropped down to his side, checking his breathing. It was stable.

"He merely slumbers," Oberon reassured her. "We tired of his impertinence, but we are minded to be merciful. Because you show such love for him as a mother for a child, I will make his end swift and painless."

"Kill him?!" Lily sprang to her feet again. "Why?"

"He has been to Avalon. He knows our ways." Oberon towered over the diminutive Lady. "He will bring others. They always do, exploring and discovering every speck of land. And I haven't the inclination to deal those who follow. Better to destroy him now."

"My lord..."

"Do not interfere!" Oberon's voice boomed with thunder behind it.

"No!" Lily stood up to her king. Small in stature, but big in heart, Lily wasn't going to let anything harm her boy.

"You risk much," Oberon warned her.

"I would forfeit my life for him and still come out ahead, as long as he is safe!" Lily stood her ground.

Now, it was Oberon's turn to rock back on his heels. The Lady of the Lake was so vehement, so passionate; she seemed sincere about protecting this mortal. He'd never experienced a mother's love before. That irrational, irrepressible, incomprehensible, undeniable force. That one of his subjects would risk expulsion or worse for a ~human~.

It was baffling and yet a little reassuring. Such conviction was lacking in his race. They lived in the moment, pursuing their whims and petty jealousies, and they had neither respect for nor thought to the consequences of their actions. If dealing with the mortal world gave the Lady this type of will, maybe it would be best to send all the Children to Earth for a time. But he could think on those things later. Right now, he needed to deal with this human and a fit-to-be-tied fay.

"I could destroy you and your 'boy'," Oberon spoke a low voice that implied 'he was in control', "but I will not. If you can ensure that he will remember nothing of Avalon or its inhabitants, he may live."

Lily looked confused. "I don't understand."

"He must forget about you." Oberon's words sliced like a dagger through her heart, and he sensed her hesitation. "You said you loved him so greatly that you would forfeit your life for him. Surely his memories are less than that drastic price."

Lily looked at the sleeping face of Lancelot. He'd grown into such a handsome knight, but Lily could still see the cherub face of the infant he'd once been. She saw his whole life grow before her. From the infant that had tugged on her hair, stuffing it into his mouth, to the toddler who learned to swim before he could walk, to the boy who loved to tromp through the woods and listened with rapt attention to her stories. Even when he had gone to Camelot, she had looked in on him from time to time. She had seen him meet his true mother before his accolade and his valorous career as a knight. That he'd forget she was ever part of his life hurt worse than a serpent's tooth.

But it was as she had said. She'd do anything, give everything for him.

"Know that I will always love you, little Galahad," Lily said in a voice choked with tears. In a stronger, but quavering voice she spoke:

'Across the shifting sands of time,Where once and future do entwine.For you, the past must never beam,Cloaked in shadows of a dream'

Her hand began to glow, and then she brushed her fingers across Lancelot's brow. Two tears dropped on his cheeks, as Lily tried and failed to hold back her sobs. Oberon remained unmoved by the sacrifice. He felt regret, but it was buried under a mountain of ego and courtly propriety. When she was done, he carried on to the next matter.

"It is time to send him back to the world." Oberon waved a hand, magically lifting Lancelot. Then he felt a tug on his cape. It was the Lady of the Lake.

"Please, my lord, let me take him back." Lily wasn't begging, simply asking to do this.

Oberon pulled his cape from her grasp. He was about to say 'no', but then he saw that same spark of motherly love that had argued for Lancelot's life. He quietly nodded his assent, then departed. Just before he left the glade he spoke to her, "Return immediately to me. We have matters to discuss."

Lancelot awoke, staring at high vaulted ceilings. "Avalon?" he whispered.

"No, Glastonbury," a friendly voice spoke from out of Lancelot's field of vision. Lancelot turned to face a friendly monk. "Welcome to the Abbey of Glastonbury."

In the forest beyond the abbey grounds, a woman with silver hair and a shimmering samite dress looked on. She sighed heavily as Merlin joined her.

"I thought we had an agreement," Merlin said without preamble. "You don't interfere with Lancelot's life and I will do the same."

"I had to save him, he is my boy," Lily shot back. Then she sighed. "It doesn't matter anymore. I will never be able to help him again."

Merlin looked her in the face and saw the tear tracks on her cheeks. He waited for her to continue.

"Oberon feels I am too attached to Lancelot. He has forbidden me from seeing him again." Tears began rolling from her eyes once more.

"Can't you appeal to him?" Merlin asked.

"I used most of his leeway just keeping Lancelot alive. I cannot go against Lord Oberon on this."

"My sincerest apologies," Merlin patted her shoulder. "I wish there was something I could do."

"There is," Lily turned to him. "Our agreement. You can still touch Lancelot's life, if you use it to help him instead of harm him, as I fear."

Merlin was quiet for a time. "I can't promise anything. The future is still stormy. And Lancelot's near the eye of that storm. But I can promise I will think on your words before I act....And watch him for you."

Lily was still unsure if she could trust her son's life to the mage. But she had little choice. Merlin followed her troubled thoughts.

"If it's any consolation, your part in this story of Camelot isn't finished. I don't know when or if we'll met again, but I know you are still tied to this." Then Merlin left the Lady with his prophecy, departing for the abbey to pick up Lancelot.

* * * * *

Arthur knocked on Elaine's door, but got no response. He knocked again two more times, then gave up; she could have been anywhere in the castle besides her room. Arthur shrugged and started back to his own room; he'd catch up with her at dinner.

He couldn't believe how he’d behaved around her. As king, he had faced raging battles, rampaging giants and evil magic with aplomb and cool-headedness. With Elaine, he had acted like a frightened page.

Why? His mind wrestled with the problem until he reached his room. Turning down the long hallway, he saw Elaine knocking on his door, and as she turned to leave, she noticed Arthur.

"It seems great minds think alike," Arthur said, smiling. "I just came from your room."

"I was wondering if you've gotten anywhere with the journals?" Elaine asked in a professional tone.

Arthur felt a little disheartened at the distance that was growing between them, but it was his doing. ~Better learn to live with it,~ Arthur admonished himself.

"The journal you found is also incomplete," Arthur replied, returning the professionalism. He opened the door to his room, and invited her in. He found the two books, sat on the bed, and then began thumbing through the Iris journal.

He waved Elaine over to his side, and noticed that she sat rather close to him. Arthur pointed to a passage halfway through the book.

"This is when the kindred of Ban, Lancelot, Lionel, Bors, Bleoboris, and Ector de Maris, returned to Benwick and fought King Claudas to free their homeland:

~I walked up to the knave and said, 'Prepare to die, my father's murderer!' The battle was fierce. Claudas fought like a cornered animal, but he was no match for my father's sword and my arm wielding it. And so I dispatched the villain quickly, avenging a wrong longing to be righted.~

"I had almost forgotten that, it's been so long," Arthur smiled.

"Hmm?" Elaine looked up at Arthur.

"Since I've read this," Arthur recovered none too smoothly. He quickly flipped through the journal, reaching a point several pages from the end.

"See here," Arthur drew Elaine's attention to the page. "This tells about his encounter with a dragon in Corbin and then..."

"The pages are blank," Elaine pointed out at the empty pages following. "What happened?"

"No one knows," Arthur flipped back and forth between the pages. "It's widely rumored Lancelot went mad and wandered the forests as a hermit. He returned to Camelot after a year's absence."

"Could those things have been made up?" Elaine asked. "Maybe Lancelot died and the rest was added years later by someone else."

"I don't think so. There's still a lot Lancelot achieved that isn't written about, and there's one other thing."

"Guinevere," Elaine guessed. "There's no mention of her or their affair in the journal."

Arthur nodded, but remained silent. Elaine didn't notice his silence or, if she did, thought nothing of it.

"So there's at least one more book out there. Any idea where to look?" Elaine asked.

"We've already found these two in chests, it follows that the other one might be in another chest," Arthur reasoned.

Elaine nodded agreement. "It seems logical. I'll talk to Daniels. Let's say we pick up the search after dinner?"

"Sounds ideal," Arthur smiled.

Elaine got up to leave. "We should get some rest. Gads, it's past noon. And tonight is going to be a long one."

As she stepped out of his small room, Arthur suddenly remembered what he had wanted to speak to her about this morning. "Elaine," Arthur spoke up, but the door closed before he could continue.

He sprang to the door and called to her, but she continued walked down the hall, as though she didn't hear him or was maybe ignoring him. Arthur couldn't blame her. But still, he wanted to straighten this out. ~Tonight,~ he promised himself, ~Tonight, I'll make it up to her.~

Dinner was held early, a combination of soup and leftovers from the luncheon. Elaine and Arthur said little as they ate, and the bags under their eyes revealed that both had just awoken. Neither was in a chatty mood, remaining quiet for a variety of reasons.

Arthur warred with himself as to whether to reveal the truth to Elaine. Of all the people he'd encountered, she seemed the most likely to be able to handle it. The arguments for and against raged in him as he calmly sipped his soup.

Elaine drowsily nibbled on a sandwich. The past couple of days had been a disruption to her nightly routine, just as Arthur had been a disruption in her routine life. That was why she loved him; he was mystery and danger rolled into one. But she was far more dangerous. Her life, her whole world was a danger and if he entered it, she was afraid it might kill him. But how could she deny her heart?

Elaine figured that as long as they kept it professional, they were safe. Nothing warmer than a handshake, nothing more intimate than a private joke. ~Keep your distance, Elaine,~ she told herself.

The sun was a half hour from setting, when the two of them left; the last to leave the dining room. Elaine's vitality improved after the meal, and she spoke with more pep as they searched the long corridors of the castle. Arthur's spirits, however, didn't change one iota. He went along with her, but didn't say more than 'okay', 'yes', or 'no'.

"I talked to Mr. Daniels. He says that anything the previous owners left him would be in the storage room above my workshop. I think we should..." Elaine paused, but picked up quickly. "...start there first and work our way around the castle."

Elaine had just glimpsed Norman doing his duty, bodyguarding. He kept to the shadows, trying to stay hidden, but if she could spot him maybe Arthur could. Elaine tugged on the king's arm, urging him to hurry up. Arthur obliged, but commented, "The journal has been hidden for centuries. I'm sure it can wait a few more minutes." Elaine looked back down the hall, but Norman was nowhere to be seen. She knew he was there though, his interest focused keenly on Arthur.

It was fortunate that the storage room was just above her workshop. Elaine hoped she could elude her protector. He wouldn't intrude in her activities, and if he thought she was in her workshop, she might have a chance to tell Arthur the truth. Whatever might happen between them, he deserved that much.

The stairway to the next floor was in a bookcase-sized portal sinking into the recess of the wall. She led Arthur up the shallow steps to the door, and then they entered the room. The storage room was the closest thing to an attic in the castle. In Arthur's time, this would have been the ward room, where staff uniforms were hung after washing. Boxes and crates of varying sizes littered the spacious room, while chests and steamer trunks lined the walls.

The golden rays of the setting sun spilled through a window, taking opposite ends of the room as they separated from one another. Arthur worked his way around a mountain of tall thin boxes that housed life-size portraits like the ones Elaine was working on. He opened a few crates, liberating a few moths and stirring up dust in the musty ward room.

As the two of them worked, the golden rays sparkled in the swirling dust slowly turned into a deep russet. Arthur crossed a valley of steamer trunks, and suddenly came across the two statues of Griff and Cavall. "Oh no," Arthur sighed.

"Elaine!" he shouted.

"Over here," she shouted back from the middle of a forest of coat racks. "If you can find me."

"We've got to get out of here. Now!"

"What's with you, Arthur?" Elaine said as she parted through the sea of clothes, finally emerging on the other side. Arthur grabbed her hand and made for the door, but Elaine resisted. She didn't want him to find out about Norman. He, on the other hand, didn't want her to find out about Griff and Cavall. But soon, it made no difference.

The sun slipped below the horizon, and soon after the sound of stone cracking preceded the mighty roar of two awakening gargoyles. Elaine jumped at the sound, but she got over her fear quickly. Arthur just shook his head, and then was surprised when Elaine moved toward the disturbance, rather than away.

"Where are you going?" Arthur asked.

"A mouse doesn't roar, so what did?" Elaine didn't slow her advance.

"Are you sure you want to meet anything that can make a sound like that?" Arthur asked.

"Hey, this is the most excitement I've had in months. What's a little danger?" Elaine smiled confidently back to him. That was when she ran into somebody, a very tall somebody.

"Well, I don't know about the danger part," Griff said cheerily as he smiled down at her.

Elaine took a few steps back, shock coloring her face. "Wha- Who are you?"

"Name's Griff. I'm a gargoyle," he laid a hand on her shoulder, a sign of friendship.

At that moment, the stairway door burst open, and Norman rushed in. To the bodyguard's eyes, it looked as though a green monster was attacking Elaine, and he immediately sprang at Griff, knocking the gargoyle away from Elaine. The two crashed into the mountain of boxes, spilling clothes and dishes all about.

As soon as Griff got over his surprise at the attack, he tried lifting the bodyguard off him. But Norman laid a punch to his midsection, knocking the wind out of him. Then Cavall came to Griff’s aid, knocking Norman away. The bodyguard rolled with the tackle, springing to his feet.

A moment later, Griff was on his feet as well, eyes glowing. He and Norman faced off, ready for another round, when Elaine and Arthur intervened.

"Griff! Stop!" Arthur ordered.

"Norman!" Elaine's voice broke through the bodyguard's battle rage.

Both of them pushed back their respective protectors as they eyed each other warily, while Cavall growled menacingly at Norman.

"Elaine, what is going on?" Norman said in low whisper.

"That's none of your concern!" Elaine ripped into him. "You don't charge into a place and start swinging! You got me!"

"And what about the monster? Seems your new friend has some old ones," Norman pointed out.

"Yes, and I mean to find out what the deal is," Elaine stole a glance at Arthur as he settled the two gargoyles down. Then she turned, pointing a finger at Norman. "But you just calm down and stay out of the way. Understand!"

"But..."

"Do you understand?!" Elaine commanded, a livid expression on her face. Norman paused, then nodded. Elaine took a couple of deep breaths before returning to the middle of the room to wait for Arthur.

Arthur checked to see if Griff was hurt, but the gargoyle was fine. Arthur explained what he could, but Griff gave a significant look behind Arthur. Elaine was waiting a respectful distance behind the king. Arthur caught his knight’s meaning and joined the lady, while Griff settled Cavall with a pat on the beast’s head.

"Seems like a night of revelations," Elaine commented. Arthur nodded in agreement.

"Your 'friend' and his 'pet'." Elaine looked to the gargoyles. "They're the reason you acted so weird this morning?"

"Partly," Arthur answered. "And the walking mountain there? Your secret?"

"Partly," Elaine answered in the same even tone. "Maybe, we should talk. Care for a stroll through the gardens?"

Arthur seemed uncertain for a moment, then agreed. "What about them?" Arthur looked to the three others in the room. Elaine smiled. "I'll handle it."

She turned and looked at Norman. "We are going for a walk, and we'll be back in a few minutes. You, two stay here and try and clean up this mess. Be nice, Norman!"

The bodyguard let out a low rumbling sigh; he'd obey, but he obviously didn't like it. Cavall kept a glowing eye on the human, but Norman ignored him. Griff looked to Arthur with an 'are-you-sure-about-this' look, and Arthur nodded an affirmative. Then Griff folded his arm and took a position by the door, while Norman took one by the window, directly opposite the gargoyle. It seemed as though they'd behave themselves, so Arthur and Elaine left for the gardens.

The garden colors were fading in the growing darkness of night, when the floodlights in the castle switched on, bathing the late fall blooms in yellow-green fluorescent light. Neither Arthur nor Elaine said anything as they left the castle halls, but Elaine was first to speak when they stepped onto the primrose path.

"Your companion. He's a gargoyle, like the ones in New York?"

Arthur nodded.

"He's what you thought I wouldn't understand?"

"Part of it, yes," Arthur kept his eyes fixed straight ahead.

"Well, I've seen him and I'm not running through the halls screaming. Got anything bigger than that?"

"Would you believe I'm King Arthur?" he said, glancing at her to see her reaction.

Elaine walked beside him in silence for a moment. "Yesterday, I might have replied, 'Well, if that’s true, then I'm the blooming May Queen'. But today is a very different day. And it does explain a lot."

"Like what?"

"Well for one thing you don't know beans about tapestries. Oak galls make ink for painting, but not dying fabrics used in tapestries. Then there was the absolute authority you showed on the subject of Lancelot. I don't know the legends that well, but I do know that they've been told and retold for centuries. You accepted this as gospel the moment you saw the first page, even though we had no way to authenticate them."

"So you believe I am who I say?" Arthur asked.

"Until I learn otherwise, you are who you say you are," Elaine judged. "One thing, though. How did you manage to stay alive for all this time?"

"Magic," he answered simply.

"Ah." Elaine's reply was half wary and half accepting.

They continued until the path turned back toward the main hall. She chuckled softly to herself. "It's funny: without those gargoyles, I wouldn't have believed you're King Arthur. But if stone creatures can come to life, why not the ancient king of the Britons?"

"Please don't call me ancient," Arthur said, smiling. "It may be fifteen centuries later , but I still am in my prime."

Elaine shared a bright smile with him. "Deal."

Now it was Arthur's turn to ask questions. "Who is that big fellow guarding your back?" he asked, trying to be unobtrusive.

"Oh, Norman. He's my bodyguard," Elaine reached out, offering her hand, and Arthur took it. It felt good to hold her hand.

"You don't seem in need of protection, unless, I count as a threat."

Elaine laughed at the last part, thinking better not tell him Norman's suspicions.

"I don't need the protection, but my husband disagrees. You see, Hector is a powerful man with some dark connection. He's had some dealings with organized crime, so for my 'protection', Norman serves as my guardian angel. He watches over me."

"It seems...intrusive," Arthur commented.

"It is, that's one of the reasons why I left Hector. But Norman still follows me around like a second shadow."

"Can you trust him?"

"With your identity? Probably, but let's keep it our secret." Elaine spoke bluntly. "As far as he knows, you're a man without a past, an enigma. I'll keep calling you Arthur. I hope you don't mind if I skip the 'your majesty' bit."

"I'd prefer it," Arthur squeezed her hand, as they returned to the main hall entrance.

"Arthur," Elaine began softly. "Now, that our secrets are out, what about us? I meant what I said earlier; I really like you. If we can handle this, surely we can handle whatever else comes?"

"There's more," Arthur sighed.

"There always is." Elaine tried for a bit of humor, but failed.

"I'm on a quest and I don't know when I'll be finished. Thus far, I've encountered several dangers, and I don't wish to put you through that. From what you've told me, your life has been in jeopardy long enough...and I love another."

"Who is she? Guinevere?" Elaine said that as a jest, but the long pause that followed told her she had stumbled upon something close to the truth. "Did Guinevere survive to this age?"

Arthur let out a deep sigh. "No," he answered sadly. "But I still love her."

Elaine pulled her hand from his. "So I'm competing with another ghost. What is this? Is Fate playing a tremendous joke on me?”

"You don't understand..." Arthur began.

"Oh, I understand exactly!" Elaine spat. Arthur tried to comfort her, but she jerked back from his touch.

"Oh, Arthur," raw hurt made her voice ragged. "Life is for the living. Don't waste it in the past."

She ran back into the castle. Arthur hurried to catch up with her, but she didn't want to hear anything he had to say. She wasn't going to be drawn into another relationship like the one with her husband. She and Arthur returned to the wardroom, and there a surprise awaited them.

Griff had found something while they were gone, and now presented it to them proudly. In his claws was a leather-bound book with a white rose embossed on the cover: the third journal. Elaine took the book from the gargoyle, looked at it, and then handed it to Arthur.

"Lancelot's third journal?" she asked.

"This is the real thing," Arthur confirmed. "Where did you find it?"

"In the crates we smashed during our 'introduction'." Griff looked meaningfully to Norman. The big man only ‘humphed’.

"Well, you know Latin," Elaine looked to Arthur. "What does it say?"

Arthur looked at Elaine, troubled by her detached manner. But what could he do? He took the book and began reading.

* * * * *

Lancelot awoke early, then went to practice on the training grounds. The ground was still damp with dew at this hour, and his breath steamed as he worked out with vicious zeal. He had a lot of frustration to work out.

All of Camelot was conspiring against him, it seemed, trying to get him married. It had begun with subtle hints, like 'why aren't you married' or 'she'd make a fine wife for you'. Then it grew to an assortment of dining companions and dance partners, followed by strategic ambushes, like last night. Arthur had called him to his aid in dealing with King Hoel of Brittany...and his lovely daughter.

Arthur had asked Lancelot to entertain the princess, while the royalty discussed other matters. While both he and the princess were French, it was the sum of their commonality. She had giggled foolishly all the time, and while she was very lovely, she couldn't speak her own mind. At one point, the princess let slip the true intentions of their visit to the knight, saying that Arthur and the King thought they'd make a good pair and had arranged this little meeting to ‘test the waters’.

Lancelot upper-cut the training post with extra vigor as he continued to think on the subject.

Arthur wasn't the only one trying to marry him off. Gawain and Gareth, his trusted friends, were just as bound and determined to see a wedding band on his finger. Gareth invited Lancelot to his home often, and many was the time Lancelot visited his friend. Gareth and his wife were the happiest couple he had ever seen; even Arthur and Guinevere commented how beautiful their love was. Lancelot never refused an invitation to their home, but Gareth saw the sadness in his hero's eyes, the man’s loneliness and longing. Gareth felt certain that sadness could be lifted with a wife and happy home of his own, so he had made discreet inquiries, and had then passed the suggestions on to Lancelot.

Gawain was worse, though; he didn't want give Lancelot a choice. The week before, he’d given hints to the ladies of the castle as to when and where Lancelot would be at all times. Consequently, a gaggle of maidens were present when he ate in the Great Hall, and when he went on his rounds along the battlements. One was even bold enough to follow him into the bath.

Lancelot gave the post a spinning kick.

The loss of privacy was especially acute for Lancelot; he dared not visit Guinevere with half the castle watching him like a hawk would spy a rabbit. People could get the wrong impression, or maybe the right one if they saw the Queen and him together. Their relationship had grown beyond mere friendship. And now everything they did to break the attraction made it stronger. The recent enforced distance made the few times they were together that much more sweet.

Lancelot never missed their French lessons, and it took him a moment before he realized that he would have to move if he wanted to make it on time today.

"Ca va, Guinevere?" Lancelot greeted the queen as he entered the library a little while later.

"Tres mal," she answered. Her frown emphasized her sour mood.

"Pourquoi?" Lancelot sat next to her.

"Because my champion has abandoned me," Guinevere switched back to her native Celtic. "What's wrong Lancelot? Why are you avoiding me?"

"I'm not avoiding you," Lancelot explained. "It's all the do-gooders out there who won't rest until I'm wed."

"Wed?"

"Yes, Gareth and Gawain, even Arthur, think I've lived the bachelor's life too long. So they've set themselves to find a mate for me."

"And they haven't succeeded?" Guinevere asked half hoping, half dreading.

"No," Lancelot reached out to hold her face. "How could I love anyone else?"

Guinevere turned away with a sad look in her eyes. "I know, but you can't have me. Please be happy with someone else."

"And what about you?" Lancelot asked softly. "Could you see me day after day, knowing I spend each night in another's arms?"

"You do. You think I can not?. But this isn't about me." Guinevere straightened up into a royal pose. "This is about you. I don't matter."

"But you do," Lancelot responded. "You matter a great deal to me."

"Mi amore," Guinevere drew closer to him. "Follow your heart."

"My heart leads to you." His voice was a whisper.

"Then it must lead somewhere else." Guinevere closed her eyes; the words were tearing at her heart.

Both stood so close together, they could embrace if they just reached out. But both were trapped by their duties; as a knight and as a queen, both had to deny their hearts. They remained near for a moment to feel the other's closeness. Then, finally, Guinevere stepped away.

"I think we should skip our lesson today," Guinevere said as she wiped her eyes, speaking in a stately voice. "Thank you for your time. You are dismissed."

Lancelot left the library feeling miserable. He walked along the high vaulted corridors of Camelot, not caring where he was going, when he heard someone laughing. ~It must be one of those girls,~ Lancelot thought disgustedly. He was going to put a stop to this right now. As Lancelot turned the corner, though, he ran into Mordred.

"Sir Mordred?" Lancelot skidded to a halt. "My apologies to you and your..."

"My advisor," Mordred introduced the man he was talking to. The stranger was cloaked in black with silver trimming the cuffs and hem, and he was pulling on his hood, so Lancelot didn't get a good look at his face. After a moment the advisor quickly departed down a poorly lit passageway without a word or a gesture.

"I didn't mean to intrude," Lancelot tried to make amends.

"Well, you did," Mordred said irritatedly. "Good day."

Lancelot then went to the stable to prepare his steed. He needed some time to think, and to let this whole 'Lancelot-get-married' thing to blow over. He sent a page to Arthur to let the king know he was going to Joyous Garde for a couple of weeks. When the page went away with his message, Lancelot left Camelot for the open road.

He spent the day traveling in a contemplative gloom, one so thick that it wasn't until he heard cries for help that he snapped to and took in his surroundings. The growing amber in the sky indicated late afternoon, and he was deep in a forest, perfect for hunting. Lancelot followed the cries for help off the main road, and when they stopped, he dismounted and continued by foot.

"Forget it, Lavaine," one voice spoke up. "No one's going to hear you in the middle of these woods. You can't even hear a tree fall this deep in."

"Someone's got to," a boy's high treble voice replied. "I can't carry you out of here myself."

"Are you in need of some help?" Lancelot asked as pushed his way through some bushes to reach two boys, a young boy barely ten hovering over an older boy of about sixteen years. The teen was clutching a bloody rag to his leg.

"Yes, Sir...?" the boy asked as he got to his feet.

"Sir Lancelot du Lac," the knight introduced himself.

"Of Camelot?" the boy grew wide-eyed.

"The same." Lancelot smiled, then checked the older boy's injury. It was a nasty gash slicing the back of his knee and going up to his thigh. "What happened to you?"

"We were hunting a boar when it turned and charged me," the teen answered. "It gored me as I tried to climb a tree."

"Well, he got you pretty good. Let’s get you out of here." Lancelot helped the teen up. "You," he pointed to the boy, "What's your name?"

"Lavaine, Sir Lancelot," he answered. "This is my brother, Tirre."

"Lavaine, bring my horse here." Lancelot pointed toward the direction he had come from. The boy hopped to, and quickly brought the stallion the rest of the way through the wood. Lancelot helped the Tirre into the saddle, then led the way back to the road.

"Our father's castle isn't far from here,..." Tirre started, but he sounded woozy as he spoke, and he stumbled a bit.

"You've lost blood," Lancelot said as he steadied the teen. "Light-headedness is to be expected. Save your strength."

"Lavaine, can you lead me to your father's home?" Lancelot asked, turning to the boy.

"Of course." Lavaine took the lead, Lancelot and the ailing Tirre following close behind.

The three of them arrived at a castle just after sunset. Tirre was immediately taken care of by the castle's physician, while Lavaine rushed to his father to tell him what happened. The father listened to his son as he approached the newcomer.

"That boy of mine has got more nerve than sense." The father looked on as the surgeon got a couple of stable hands to carry Tirre on a litter. Then he approached Lancelot and his stern frown turned to a relieved smile.

"I'm Bernard of Astolat. My thanks for returning my boys safely."

"It was no trouble." Lancelot took Bernard’s offered hand and shook it firmly. "Will Tirre be all right?"

"Our surgeon is a capable sort," Bernard looked to the shed his son was being taken to. "He's in good hands."

"Father, what about the tournament?" Lavaine asked.

"Later, Lavaine," Bernard patted his son's head absently. "Right now, we need to see to your brother."

Bernard turned back to Lancelot. "Please consider yourself a guest in our home. Lavaine, find your sister and see to our guest, okay."

Bernard departed to talk with the surgeon, while Lavaine looked on dejectedly. But then the boy remembered his legendary guest and lead Lancelot into the castle.

"Elaine!" he shouted. "Elaine, where are you?"

That name triggered something in Lancelot's mind. He saw a face shrouded in firelight and night. A memory or a dream too elusive to fully recall, but he felt ashamed somehow. He couldn't explain it, but the name meant something, something shameful to him.

"You can just send someone to find me," a girl shouted down from the second floor. "Try and act cultured, you lout! What?"

"We have a guest," Lavaine continued shouting up to her.

Elaine was a beautiful girl of fourteen, with long dark hair. Her hands flew up to cover her nose and mouth when she saw the newcomer; they had guests and the castle looked like ~this~. She rushed down the stairs to meet the newcomer, and to ostensibly apologize.

"This is Sir Lancelot du Lac from Camelot," Lavaine said with a measure of haughtiness. "He's spending the night. Father says to..."

"Prepare the guest rooms!" she ordered her little brother. Her eyes fixed on Lancelot.

"Father told me! That means I'm in charge!" Lavaine stamped his foot. Elaine gave Lancelot an apologetic look, then turned to her brother.

"Go up and prepare the room!" She fixed her younger brother with a stern gaze.

"No," Lavaine replied petulantly. "I want to talk to Lancelot."

Elaine gave Lavaine's arm a pinch, causing the brother to cry out in pain. "There'll be time to talk to him at dinner. Go fix his room!"

Lavaine looked at his sister darkly as he rubbed his arm. But he did as he was told. When he was at the top of the stairs, he stuck out his tongue at his sister. Elaine started up the stairs to get him, but Lavaine dashed out of sight.

"My apologies," Elaine said, trying to smooth over the tiff with her little brother. "Can I get you something to eat or drink?"

"I am a little hungry," Lancelot nodded. "I haven't eaten since this morning."

"Right this way!" Elaine led the way to the kitchen. "Dinner's almost finished. I don't think the cook will mind us starting early."

Dinner that evening was casual and friendly. Elaine served Lancelot, then prepared settings for her father and brothers. Lavaine came in first, his foul mood evaporating when he saw the knight. Happily he sat to Lancelot's right, reaching for the bread, while Elaine sat elegantly to the knight’s left. Both asked him questions about the world beyond Astolat.

"What are the ladies wearing this year?", "Is there any new fabrics from the continent?", “What’s it like being in Camelot?" Elaine pelted him with questions about courtly life. Lavaine, in contrast, asked about his adventures and the monsters he'd fought.

"Have you fought any dragons?" Lavaine asked him excitedly.

Lancelot got that feeling again. A feeling like a door in his mind opened a crack. He remembered snapping jaws and his hissing fury. He got an impression of a weight on his back and hot breath on his neck, but nothing concrete. It felt frightening. But then Lancelot pushed it out of his mind.

"No, I haven't," Lancelot replied in a distant voice.

It was then that Bernard entered with his advisor, interrupting Lancelot's slight revere. Both siblings looked to him, and Elaine spoke up first. "How's Tirre?"

"He's fine, but he'll be laid up for weeks," Bernard said as he sat down to eat.

"What about Blackthorn?" Lavaine asked.

"One of the soldiers will have to take Tirre's place."

"What about Lancelot?" Lavaine offered. "He's a great knight. He can kick Blackthorn's sorry tail..."

"Lavaine! Watch your tongue! Don't talk like a stable hand!" Elaine reprimanded her brother. "Besides, Lancelot is a guest. We don't burden guests with our trouble."

"Helping friends is never a burden," Lancelot said, including himself in the conversation. "What is the trouble?"

"We have a minor dispute with Sir Blackthorn, the neighboring baron. We've agreed to settle it over a jousting tournament. Tirre was to champion the family honor, but with this injury?" Bernard shook his head.

"You'll help us, won't you?" Lavaine looked to his hero with adoring eyes.

"Well, I'm in no rush to be anywhere. I'd be glad to help."

"I thank you, Sir Lancelot," Bernard said gratefully, accepting the knight’s offer. "We'll start tomorrow. Now, let's eat."

Some time later, Lancelot was preparing for bed. The guest room was spacious, but the furnishings were simple. He was washing his face in a basin of water when there was knock at the door, and when he opened it, he saw Elaine standing there with a bowl of fruit.

"I thought you might like a little dessert," Elaine offered. Lancelot picked an apple from the assortment of pears, apples and berries.

"Thank you," Lancelot smiled and began closing the door.

"Do you find everything to your satisfaction?" Elaine asked, holding the door ajar.

"Everything is lovely," Lancelot answered.

"As good as Camelot?" she persisted.

"I think you could teach a few people in Camelot about hospitality. This is a wonderful place and you are a wonderful host."

Elaine blushed hotly with the praise. Impulsively, she stood up on her tiptoes and kissed Lancelot on the cheek, then she hurried down the hall. Lancelot smiled at the vital young girl, then the shame he felt earlier resurfaced. Something about Elaine being in his room made him feel guilty, like he’d betrayed someone, though it didn't make sense. Lancelot quickly pushed the thought out of his mind and then went to bed.

The next morning saw a flurry of activity in Astolat Castle in preparation for the day’s event. At mid-morning, the procession of retainers, men-at-arms and lower nobility made a casual ride from the castle; wagons carrying tools, wares, tents, and provisions followed behind. Before joining Bernard, Elaine and Lavaine at the head of the procession, Lancelot went up to the weaponsmaster and talked to him for a moment.

"What was that all about?" Elaine asked as Lancelot came riding. She could rarely keep her eyes off the knight.

"Oh, just a change of armor. Something a little less well-made," Lancelot chuckled to himself, then turned to Bernard.

"I didn't have a chance to ask last night, but what is this all about?"

"Cows." Bernard pointed to a herd as they passed the practice grounds on their way to town. "Blackthorn's cows wandered through a break in his wall and devoured a third of my fields. When I found out about it, I took the cows as my own and told him I'd return them once he’d repaired the wall. The hothead charged me with thievery, and demanded my lands in payment for the cows. I didn’t want things to get completely out of hand, so I've arranged for this tournament as a way to smooth things over...I hope."

"And a chance to knock his teeth in," Lancelot added.

Bernard gave a sharp, barking laugh. "Yeah, that too. Blackthorn's a young lord; very passionate, quick to temper. Taking him down a peg might do the lout some good."

Lancelot nodded agreement. "I'll need a squire during the tournament, though. Do you have one you can loan?"

"Oh, please father, let me," Lavaine spoke up. He turned to the knight. "I won't let you down, Sir Lancelot."

"Well, someone from the family should represent us on the field..." Bernard stroked his beard thoughtfully.

"He certainly has the enthusiasm of a squire..." Lancelot joined in the teasing play.

After a moment, Bernard nodded. "Okay, you can assist Sir Lancelot, Lavaine. But you must do as he says and no slip-ups."

"No slip-ups, I promise." Lavaine beamed with excitement; he was going to squire the greatest knight in the world! He vowed to do everything extra special for the man.

"You'll need a lady's favor, too," Elaine said as she smoothly rode up next to Lancelot.

"It seems only fitting that I have your favor as lady of the manor. What did you have in mind?" Lancelot smiled warmly at the girl. Elaine looked around her, suddenly seeming like she was at a loss.

"Where is it? I must have left it back at the castle." Elaine sounded distressed for a moment. "Oh, here." Elaine tugged at her the sleeve of her red dress. Her father was considerably alarmed, but before he could say anything, she tore the sleeve from the shoulder. Lancelot started to object, but it was too late: the sleeve was off and Elaine was tying it around Lancelot's arm.

"Know that when you wear this, you ride for my honor," Elaine said, probably quoting from some epic she’d been told.

"And what are you going to do with the other sleeve, young lady?" Bernard said with great disapproval.

Elaine tugged the other sleeve loose, then rode next to Lavaine and tied it to his arm. "Now they match: knight and squire."

Bernard shook his head, and was about to give her a stern lecture, when the blaring of trumpets in the distance told them they were nearing the tourney grounds.

"It's always an interesting sight to see a pompous noble humbled," Elaine commented with a straight face. But one look at Lavaine was enough to cause her to lose all composure, and she started laughing uncontrollably. Lavaine quickly joined her, and soon the rest of the procession was laughing as they made their way back to Astolat.

The tournament had been less a jousting match than a one-sided game of tag. As soon as Sir Blackthorn had seen Lancelot in his 'Ill-Made Knight' guise riding up onto the field, the minor nobleman had turned his horse around and fled. Apparently, Blackthorn had heard of the powerful knight in mismatched armor and had lost the will to fight.

The fun had really started, though, when Lancelot had rode toward his opponent to talk to him. Blackthorn was so frightened of the legend that was coming towards him, he kept on goading his horse to run round and round the tourney grounds fleeing the Ill-Made Knight until it nearly dropped from exhaustion.

For all his bluster, Blackthorn had turned out to be a cowardly man, and now everyone knew it. He agreed to fix Bernard’s fence and withdrew his charge of thievery, and because that was all the lord of Astolat wanted, he and the rest of his retinue were now headed back to the castle for a victory celebration.

"You were amazing out there," Elaine complimented Lancelot.

"I did little," Lancelot replied. "Blackthorn's own cowardice defeated him."

"Why'd you spare him?" Lavaine took Lancelot's attention from his sister. "He should have died like the cowardly dog that he is."

"A knight's task isn't to kill. It's to serve those you care about." Lancelot leaned closer to Lavaine. "Besides, men like Blackthorn die a thousand deaths from their shame."

Lavaine nodded in awe of Lancelot; for the impressionable lad, everything the knight said was like wisdom of the ages.

The victory celebration was a big affair. Astolat Castle glowed with torches filling every sconce. Music and wine flowed liberally, and everyone drank to Lancelot's health and ate to his fortune. This was one of the things that Lancelot liked most about being a hero: happy faces, pleasant people, high revelry, and the knowledge that all this had been earned and was honestly deserved.

The party didn't wind down until very late that night. By then, the minstrels were playing a somber tune that sounded remarkably like someone snoring through their horns. The men of the castle had either passed out, sleeping where they lay, or disappeared with a serving maid somewhere. Lancelot had remained awake only because his tankard had had a crack in it and had spilled beer like a sieve; a fact which caused the soldiers to remark about how he drank ten steins to their three.

Lancelot was debating to himself whether it was worth the trouble to get up and find his room, when he spotted some movement to his side. He turned to see Elaine making her way through the slumbering bodies, then stumble her way to him when she saw he was awake.

"Could you escort me to my chambers?" she said, her speech slightly slurred. "I seem to have lost my way."

"You shouldn't be drunk," Lancelot said rebuked drowsily.

"Oh, don't be an old maid," Elaine waved him off. "What father doesn't know won't hurt me."

"When did you grow so bold?" Lancelot sat up in his chair.

"Oh, about three ales ago," Elaine counted on her fingers. "Will you see me up to my chamber, or should I ask one of these fine gentlemen to?"

The knight knew the honor of drunk 'gentlemen' wasn't to be trusted, and what would happen if her father found her in this state? Lancelot didn't want to dwell on that. So he nodded agreement and levered himself out of his chair. Both of them were drunk, but Lancelot, being bigger, wasn't as inebriated. Elaine, on the other hand, wasn't as lucky. It was obvious to Lancelot that this was her first time drunk; she giggled at everything that happened, including stumbling on the stone steps up to the bedchambers.

Leaning against the hallway for support, they stepped over the sprawled body of a sentry who was snoring loudly, a jar of brown ale firmly in hand. Lancelot knew the man would need that the next day, when the captain caught him away from his post.

They turned into another corridor, and passed by several doors. Behind one they heard some commotion: sounds of a man and a woman laughing came from behind it. The woman screamed from being tickled, and then the man murmured playfully.

"I wonder what they're doing?" Elaine started for the door.

"That's not for your eyes,” Lancelot quickly said as he steered her away.

"You think I don't what people do behind close doors? I am fourteen, you know." Suddenly, Elaine stumbled. But Lancelot was quick, and he caught her before she landed on the floor.

"Then you're old enough to act like a proper lady," Lancelot admonished her. His head began throbbing.

"Maybe tomorrow." Elaine still held onto Lancelot, even after she regained her balance. They only had a little ways to go before they were at Elaine's chambers, and soon Lancelot brought her into her room and lit the lanterns to cast away the darkness there.

"Speaking of ‘what's proper’," Elaine said as she ran her fingers through her hair, "don't you know you aren't suppose to enter a lady's room unless you’re invited?"

"My apologies," Lancelot mumbled as he finished lighting the room.

"'Tis all right. I invite you to my boudoir." Then Elaine leapt up and wrapped her arms around Lancelot's neck, and planted a kiss firmly on his lips.

Caught by surprise, Lancelot struggled to get free. "Young lady..." he began.

"That's right. I am a lady and you are a man. We should be together." She reached up for another kiss.

Lancelot held her at arms length. "This isn't right."

"Why? I love you. You must have known."

"I know you have a crush on me," Lancelot said. "But it's not love."

"It feels like love to me." Elaine grabbed his hand and placed it on her chest. "Can't you feel it? My heart pounds like this every time you're near. I'm surprised the whole castle doesn't hear it."

"What you are feeling is very real, but it isn't love. It's infatuation," Lancelot said, trying once more to dissuade Elaine. "It will pass."

"And what if it doesn't? What if you’re wrong and this really is love?" Her eyes widened with realization. "You wouldn't love me. Even if this was true love, you wouldn't return it?"

Lancelot was beginning to get a headache. This scene seemed so familiar, and yet handling it seemed so foreign. How could he relate to the emotional state of a teenager? "My heart belongs to another," he explained.

"Then take mine," Elaine insisted. "I can be anything you want me to be."

Reason wasn't reaching her, and his headache made thinking very hard. He'd have to be blunt. "What do you know about love? You're just a simple girl who's had too much to drink. You'd probably say you love the swineherd or the jester if they were here instead of me."

"No, I love you!" Elaine's eyes glistened with tears.

"Go to sleep, girl," Lancelot ordered her. "And hope I don't tell your father what an embarrassing spectacle you've made of yourself."

He had to be as stern as possible so she'd get the message. He didn't want to hurt her, but he didn't see any other way for her to understand. Then Lancelot strode out of the room, but turned one last time, and saw Elaine sitting on her bed with a stunned look on her face. Lancelot had seen knights with that look when the wind got knocked out of them: they seemed disoriented, lost. She knew she hurt, but didn't register the pain. Lancelot wanted to make sure she was all right, but she might mistake concern for love, and Lancelot had to make a clean break, so he left her there, alone.

He left Astolat early the next morning. He didn't want to run into Elaine because he wasn't exactly proud of the way he handled her. But it would be better if he just left and let her mend her broken heart alone.

The castle was still in a hangover when Lancelot departed, so only the outer sentries noted his leaving. He then turned onto the river road that took him straight to Joyous Garde, wondering if he could have handled the situation at Astolat better.

As he approached his home, he saw a surprise: the king's flag was waving on all the standards. As he entered the courtyard, Lancelot was greeted by King Arthur and Queen Guinevere themselves. But he could see they were by themselves, a fact which struck Lancelot as being curious; the monarchs rarely went anywhere without a gaggle of courtiers. When Lancelot reached them, he dismounted and greeted king and queen warmly.

"When we heard you left Camelot, Guinevere told me how intrusive we've all been playing matchmaker," Arthur explained. "Can you forgive me?"

"It's already forgotten, my friend." Lancelot shared a warrior's handshake with him. Guinevere smiled, glad things seemed to have been patched up so smoothly.

Then Arthur looked around at the castle. "You've made some remarkable improvements."

"Well, the ‘dark, brooding motif’ just wasn't me. I've added on to Joyous for years. The fishing is pretty good in the marshlands, and I'd love to show you around."

"Please do so," Arthur said, smiling. "I think Camelot can do without us for a couple of days. What do you say, my love?"

"A holiday from court sounds lovely. And this place could use a lady's touch, if you don't mind," Guinevere added. Then the three of them entered the castle for lunch.

"We have to get there early," Lancelot explained. "The wetland's best fishing is at high tides. If we don't move we'll miss it."

Arthur rode close to Lancelot. "It's your land. You know best."

Most of the wetlands were brackish, reed choked regions, but there was a long clear lagoon where the fishing was excellent. It was near a river that flowed east out the interior, past Astolat, and all the way to the sea just below where Joyous Garde was. The two fishers arrived just as the waves were rolling over the spit of beach separating the lagoon from the ocean, spilling froth onto the lagoon’s surface. The small body of water frothed a little more as the river fish came to feast on the seaweed and green foam scum brought in by the waves. When the two friends found a likely looking spot, they set their poles and then waited for a nibble.

High tide came and went. King and knight brought in small catches, but the fish weren't interested in their pitiful bait; they had already eaten their fill from the ocean. By late afternoon, Lancelot and Arthur were about to pack everything up, when an object floated into the lagoon from the river. It looked like a skiff, but it had no prow and it rode low in the water.

Both men walked up the shore to get a better look. As they got closer, they could see that it wasn't a skiff, but a coffer. Plain in make, it floated towards them, until it finally stopped and settled in a bed of water lilies. Lancelot wadded out to the coffer and then, after a moment’s hesitation, he opened it. What he saw shocked him so, that he fell back into the lagoon, his stunned look distorted in the rippling water below him.

"Oh my," Arthur said in a voice half sympathetic, half with grief, as he saw what was inside the wooden box.

Inside the coffer was a young woman, no more than fourteen years of age with long dark hair. It was Elaine of Astolat, and she was dead.

Lancelot sat in the water, too stunned to get up or do anything. After a moment, Arthur recovered from his shock and returned to the coffin. Elaine's hand clutched a note close to her heart. Asking for her forgiveness, Arthur removed the note for her cold hands.

"Lancelot? Do you know this girl?" Arthur asked after reading the note.

"Yes." Lancelot sounded very distant. "Her name is Elaine, daughter of Bernard of Astolat. I met them a couple of days ago."

Arthur pulled the coffer out of the water, then did the same for Lancelot. "This letter is for you," he said as he handed the scrap of paper to the knight. Bewildered, Lancelot picked up note, and began to read.

"To whom it may concern:Please make sure this note finds Lancelot du Lac of Camelot.

Lancelot, I do love you. My heart tells me this is true. But you love another, so we can never be. Going on without your love is more than I can bear. So I'll end it and hope we can be together in the next world. Please know that I love you. It isn't the whim of a silly girl, but the deep, abiding feelings of a woman.

With all my love,Elaine"

Lancelot read and reread the letter several times as Arthur got the horses. He was shaken to the very core of his being, and he didn't register Arthur tying the coffin to his horse or helping him mount his own steed. The ride home was jarring, but his mind was miles away; for him it was as if everything had stopped.

Guinevere was stunned by the news. She went to Lancelot to comfort him, but he gently pushed her aside and went to his room. Arthur had to send a messenger to Astolat with the sad news. The joy had gone out of Joyous Garde that day.

Guinevere and Arthur had breakfast without Lancelot. Since the discovery of Elaine's body, the knight neither slept nor ate. He closed himself off in his room, refusing everyone.

"I've never seen Lancelot like this," Arthur spoke in a concerned whisper with Guinevere, as he looked over the bread, fruit, and wine they were having.

"He has a mountain of grief to overcome," Guinevere commented.

"I wish there was something we could do for him," Arthur replied.

"No dear, this is something he must see through himself.” Guinevere reached for Arthur’s hand across the table.

"I just feel for him," Arthur repeated. But he let the subject settle, and soon both returned to their meal.

Guinevere lightly rapped on Lancelot's door. She had told Arthur to stay out of it, but she couldn't take her own advice. Lancelot needed her. After a moment with no response, she unlocked the door with the master key and entered. She stepped into the darkened room, and saw the curtains drawn and the candles spent, the chambers a pit of darkness.

"Lancelot?" She neared the edge of the light created by the door. "Lancelot?"

Then she heard breathing by the four-posted bed. She left the light and crossed the darkness to him. Lancelot sat on the far side of the bed, staring down at a scrap of red cloth. He didn't even register her in the room, until she stood in front of him.

"What do you want?" he asked miserably.

"For you to snap out of this." Guinevere knelt down to look him in the eye.

"What's to snap out of? I killed this girl."

"No! You were honest with her and she took her own life out of sadness," Guinevere said hotly, then checked her self. Her words made her sound cold and unfeeling to a terrible tragedy. "Lancelot, Elaine wanted you to love her as a husband. Could you?"

"No," Lancelot answered grimly.

"If you knew she would take her life, would you have changed your mind? Would you have married her if you thought she'd take her life otherwise?"

"I don't know, but I guess not."

"Then you have nothing to feel guilty about." Guinevere grasped his hands. "It would be worse if you strung her along with false promises. If you told her you'd marry her and then left. You were honest to her and yourself, and that's nothing to be ashamed of."

"She's still dead," Lancelot looked into Guinevere’s face, his eyes watering up.

"Yes, and that is a great tragedy. I wish it weren't so, but I can't change what happened and neither can you. Beating yourself up about it won't change that."

"So I should just forget her?"

"No." Guinevere kissed his hands. "No. You must grieve, but not in this self-destructive way. This pain will become a part of you. It will take time, but I want you to come through the other side of this. For me?"

Lancelot looked into her eyes and caressed her face. Then he closed his eyes and took a deep breath. "For you, and for me." He straightened up. Smiling, Guinevere stood up.

"Now, do you feel like a bite of breakfast?"

Lancelot nodded and his stomach rumbled in agreement. They left to go downstairs, Lancelot leaving the red sleeve on the bed. A break in the curtains allowed a shaft of morning light to fall on the bright cloth.

"Are you sure about this?" Guinevere asked Lancelot.

"Yes," the knight said solemnly. "This was Bernard's only daughter. He'll need help getting through this time. I'll return to Camelot after the funeral."

"We understand," Arthur said as he patted Guinevere's shoulder affectionately. Lancelot saddled his horse, preparing the coffin for transport as he waited for Lavaine. The boy had arrived late the day before to claim the body, and he had been understandably torn up over the death of his sister.

Guinevere's words couldn't have come at a better time. Lancelot needed to be strong to help Lavaine through this. Bringing the body back and attending the funeral was the least he could do. Bernard might not accept him, but he had to say good bye to Elaine, and a funeral was the only way let the healing begin.

Lavaine came out of the castle hall, a cloud of sorrow shrouding him like a cloak. He moved briskly enough, but he didn't speak and didn't meet anyone's eye as he hopped onto the wagon and moved it to the main gate. Arthur and Guinevere looked to Lancelot, worry and sympathy coloring their face. Lancelot only nodded before ordering the gates open and before the two mourners took the river road back to Astolat.

On the way, Lancelot at first tried to start a conversation, but Lavaine would only nod, shrug or shake his head as a response. The trip was slow because of the wagon and their cargo, and when the sun reached midday, Lancelot stopped their trek. Lavaine obediently complied, but by his frown he disapproved. Lancelot started eating lunch, but Lavaine refused, instead sitting off by himself on a boulder above the river. The boy sat curled up, his arms wrapped around his knees, and Lancelot grew more worried about the lad with every moment he stayed silent. After a little while, Lancelot made a decision.

The knight walked up to Lavaine and handed him the note. Lavaine looked perplexed at him for a moment, the then read the note. When he’d finished, the boy paused for a moment, then suddenly sprang to his feet and charged the knight, pummeling Lancelot's midsection. The knight took the punishment, letting each blow hit him, and only stood his ground. Hot tears flowed down Lavaine's cheeks as he threw punch after punch until he couldn't lift his fists anymore. Once he’d stopped, Lancelot hugged him. Lavaine cried openly, wailing his sorrow to the world.

Lancelot spoke into Lavaine's hair, "Hate me, if it makes you feel better. But I didn't kill your sister."

"She loved you!" Lavaine said accusingly.

"Yes and no," Lancelot explained. "Part of her did love me. But a large part loved the idea of being in love and couldn't stand the loneliness. That was the part that killed her."

Lavaine pulled himself away and dried his eyes. "I believe you, Sir Lancelot," Lavaine suddenly sounded older than his ten years. "You are a knight of the Round Table and the Flower of Chivalry, and you speak the truth. How can I blame you for my sister's death?"

"Because it hurts. Her parting affects us all. I'm sorry she's gone." Lancelot spoke what was in his heart.

"I am too, but I won't blame you for her death," Lavaine said as he wiped the dried tear tracks from his cheeks.

"I'm glad to hear that," Lancelot said evenly. "Now, let's move on." In more ways than just traveling, they did.

* * * * *

"That is so sad," Elaine said as she felt tears wet her face. "But I thought Elaine was older than fourteen?"

"You're thinking of Elaine of Corbin," Arthur corrected.

"How many Elaines are there?" she asked.

"Three. Elaine of Benwick, Lancelot's birth mother; Elaine of Corbin; and Elaine of Astolat."

"You wouldn't happen to be one of them?" Griff asked.

"Funny," Elaine retorted. She held up a hand to stay Norman as he started advancing towards Griff. He was looking for a rematch with the gargoyle, but Elaine wasn't going to put up with any more fighting.

"Well, we've run across stranger things," Griff explained. "Between stone dragons, water creatures, and talking stones, it wouldn't be a stretch."

"I'd know," Arthur added with a twinge of sadness. "Queen Elaine of Benwick stayed in Camelot while she was in exile. She died peacefully in her homeland after Lancelot won it back from Claudas. I discovered Elaine of Astolat along with Lancelot during that tragic affair, you look nothing like her either."

"What about Elaine of Corbin?" Elaine asked meanly. "Do I remind you of her?"

Arthur sighed. "No. I met that Elaine when she visited Camelot. It was shortly before Lancelot vanished."

* * * * *

Sir Lancelot and his squire Lavaine were returning to Camelot after a month of questing. Taking Lavaine as his squire had turned out to be an inspired decision for the knight. The two years following his sister's death had seen many changes in the lad. He’d found a deeper maturity that made him wise beyond his years. He was also a loyal servant, but an even better friend, and now Lancelot never went anywhere without him.

Knight and squire entered under the portcullis into the main courtyard, and found a page awaiting them with an urgent message. "Lady Elaine awaits you in her guest chambers."

"What?" Both arrivals were shocked by the name.

"Lady Elaine of Corbin awaits you in her guest chambers," the page reiterated, a little nervous from their reaction.

Lancelot relaxed and Lavaine's face fell. Lancelot patted him reassuringly. It still hurt to think about his sister. Lavaine regained enough of his good cheer to return the smile.

"Tell her I'll be with her right away," Lancelot said as he steered his mount to the stables. He tried recalling if he’d ever met Elaine of Corbin before, but his mind drew a blank. His heart shrank a bit at the thought, which he found odd. Why did he feel this way about someone he hadn't even met?

Lancelot puzzled over this as he climbed the steps to the guest tower. He lightly knocked on the door, entering when bidden. Elaine was an attractive woman with copper red hair and a bright face, one that brightened further when she saw Lancelot.

"There you are!" She ran up to him and gave him a warm hug and a kiss on the cheek. Lancelot was a little surprised at the affection, but didn't show it. He quickly hugged her and let her speak.

As she released Lancelot, she began to talk excitedly. "I was so worried! When you left, you were raving like a mad man. I didn't even know whether you were alive or dead until a few weeks ago. But all that can wait. Come!" She led him to the next room, where a toddler lay on the bed. "Lancelot, meet your son, Galahad."

"Merlin! Merlin!" Lancelot burst into the wizard's room. Few dared enter Merlin's inner sanctum with its bubbling flasks and frothing potions. The alchemy paraphernalia was mostly for show, but it didn't intimidate Lancelot this time. Merlin sat next to the window reading a tome, and as the knight burst in, he turned towards him with a half-amused, half-irritated look.

"Is it true?" Lancelot went on without preamble, without even stopping to hear if he was welcomed. "Is Galahad my son?"

"The child with Elaine of Corbin?" Merlin placed a bookmark in his volume and closed the book.

"Yes! She says that this child is my son, but I've never seen Elaine before."

"Inaccurate," Merlin said simply.

"What do you mean?" Lancelot was growing annoyed. "The child is three years of age, which means I must have been with Elaine four years ago. That year is a blur for me."

"~That~ is accurate," Merlin nodded.

"The only thing I remember is you coming to fetch me at Glastonbury. Which begs the question: what do you know about this?"

"Tell me about your mother," Merlin said in a calm reassuring voice.

"What?" Lancelot looked at the magician incredulously.

"Your mother holds the key to that year," Merlin answered.

Lancelot straightened up and blinked. "I ask you a question, you answer in riddles. Typical."

Merlin bolted out of his chair. "This isn't a riddle! Your mother gave up a great deal to save you, and I won't have you wasting the sacrifice!"

"What do you mean?" Lancelot was stunned by Merlin's vehemence. "What did Queen Elaine do?"

"Not Elaine of Benwick," Merlin backed off a bit. "Your mother by love, the Lady of the Lake."

"My mother...by love?" Lancelot felt the door to his memory open wider. "Tell me what you know."

"What a darling boy," Guinevere said as she knelt down to look at Galahad. His strawberry blonde hair almost matched the ruddy look of his face as he grinned excitedly at the Queen.

"He's the most perfect child the world has ever known," Elaine agreed. "Of course, I'm biased."

"It's a mother's right to be." Guinevere made faces at Galahad. "Your child will always be the dearest thing to you. I hope I'll know that joy soon."

"Is your majesty expecting?" Elaine looked up from fussing over Galahad.

"No. Arthur and I have been trying for so long," Guinevere looked wistful. "I'm still hopeful, though."

The boy motioned to gain the queen’s attention, and then said, “Look at what I can do!” With that, he drew and then hefted a large dagger that he’d had at his side. Then he performed a few tricks with the blade before reseathing it. Guinevere smiled brightly at the boy. "Oh, you are strong!” She turned back towards Elaine. “He'll be a strong knight when he grows up."

"Just like his father," Elaine smiled. "Speaking of which, I wonder where Lancelot got to?"

For Guinevere, the world and her heart stopped for a moment. She was thunderstruck; this was ~Lancelot’s~ child?!

"My queen, is anything the matter?" Elaine asked.

"NO! I mean,...I just remembered something that needs attending to," Guinevere covered.

"Well, thank you for spend time with my son and me. It'll be something he’ll remember always."

"If you want for anything just tell a page," Guinevere said and quickly departed, ignoring the “Good-bye!” that Galahad called after her. She practically ran through the corridors before finding her room, and when she entered, she quickly locked the door and cried.

"The Lady of the Lake saved me?" Lancelot was dumbfounded.

"Yes," Merlin informed him. "She saved you from the wyvernsblight, and then again from the fairy king's wrath."

"And I saved Elaine from this wyvern before falling ill?" Lancelot still found it hard to believe. "How come I don't remember any of this?"

"Delirium from wyvernsblight," Merlin answered, bending the truth a bit.

"But that was only one night...what about the entire year?"

"In the domain of the Third Race, time flows differently. In the mortal world a year went by, but for you it was little more than a couple of weeks."

"Why didn't you tell me this before?" Lancelot asked. "I've been back for three years and not once have you mentioned this."

"I made a promise not to interfere," Merlin answered. "But since you asked, I can tell you."

"What did my mother sacrifice for me?" Lancelot was a bit hesitant, unsure what to expect.

"She can never see you again." Merlin's face aged as the weight of the sadness sunk in. "She lost you in order to save you."

Lancelot remained silent for a long time. "She loved me greatly," Lancelot said quietly. "I hear it in your voice. She loved me more than life itself."

"That is what a mother does...and a father," Merlin brought him back to the reason for his visit.

"Galahad is my son." Lancelot said it more as a statement than a question.

"That is up to you," Merlin said as he stood up. "I can't divine paternity. Do you believe this woman? Do you love this child? Those are questions you must answer for yourself."

Lancelot joined Merlin as the magician left his room. The knight had one more question.

"Merlin? Why did you make a promise not to interfere? What is that about?"

"Sir knight, there is a spark of greatness in each of us. For some, it's buried deep and may surface only once in a lifetime. For others, like yourself, it's so close to the surface, it peaks out without effort. The Lady of the Lake saw this in you and so did I. It's a greatness to do great good or great evil. The Lady knew you would do good; I feared you'd do evil. In the end, we both agreed you had to be the person you were meant to be. Neither of us could change that."

"I didn't know you thought so low of me." Lancelot dropped his head.

"I didn't know you then." Merlin clapped a hand on Lancelot's shoulder. "But I've seen you in action. You've faced peril after peril. Your heart's always been in the right place. Look to it now in this matter."

Then Merlin walked away, leaving Lancelot with a lot to think about. Just before the mage turned the corner, he looked back at the introspective knight and shook his head.

Lancelot was returning to Elaine's quarters, when a page intercepted him with a message from the Queen. Lancelot went to the library, always their meeting place, but she wasn't there. Perplexed, he went to her chambers.

"My Queen, you sent for me?" Lancelot said as he entered Guinevere's chambers. "Mi amore?"

It was dark, save for one drawn curtain spilling light across the spacious bedroom. Guinevere stood facing out the window with her back to him.

"I've heard some disturbing rumors of late," the queen began without preamble. "They say that you will be leaving Camelot with Elaine of Corbin and her son."

"Yes it is true, I just received the king's leave. I was going to tell Elaine and then you. We'll be departing soon."

"Rumor also says that Galahad is your son. Is this true?"

Lancelot could hear the desperation in her voice, how much she wanted this to be false. "Yes, he is my son." He saw her head fall and knew she was crying. He moved to comfort her, but when he held her shoulders, she flinched away from his touch.

"It's foolish of me to be carrying on so." Guinevere wiped her tears away "We can't be together. It's only natural for you to find another. We've been here before."

"No." Lancelot turned her around. "She hasn't replaced you, Mi amore. You are still first in my heart."

"Then what happened four years ago?" Guinevere asked, a hard edge to her voice.

"It was an accident," Lancelot tried to explain.

"An accident? What you slipped, fell, and four years later Elaine came here with a son?"

"You're not listening." Lancelot shook his head.

"Maybe because I don't want to hear it."

"Mi amo..."

"No!" Guinevere held up an imperious hand. "It was a foolish game we were playing. Our love isn't more than a daydream fancy. Let's not treat it as if it were one of the great romances of history."

"Guinevere, I love you. This doesn't change anything."

"Even if it didn't," Guinevere said as she stared hard into his eyes, "what can we do about it? I love Arthur too much to hurt him, and our love can come to nothing. It's better if you go with Elaine."

"And spare ~you~ the pain of having to choose." Lancelot's words cut Guinevere to the quick.

"You wound me," Guinevere said, her face reflecting the hurt.

"You wound ~me~ when you trivialize our love like this. I've cared about you since the moment I laid eyes on you. I pledged my life to your service, not because it was duty, but because I loved you. I know our love can't go further than deep friendship. But that won't change what is in my heart."

"Yet, you leave with Elaine."

"And Galahad. They both need a father and a husband, and I can't abandon them. But Gwen, I have always and will always love you."

"I wish I could believe that," Guinevere said as she turned her back to him. Lancelot let out a heartfelt sigh and started to leave the room, but before passing through the door, he turned back.

"Search your heart, Mi amore," Lancelot advised. "Do you truly feel our love is gone?"

Early the next morning, Lancelot, Elaine and the young Galahad departed from Camelot. It was a bittersweet departure. The knights all wished him safe journey, but the one face he longed to see didn't appear. And from her view in the library, Guinevere watched Lancelot ride out of her life.

* * * * *

"So what happened next?" Norman asked. He’d stopped cleaning the room a little while before, preferring to listen to Arthur's narrative.

Arthur and Griff both looked surprised at the big man's request. Elaine smiled, "Why, Norman, don't tell me you're getting into the story?"

Norman frowned unconvincingly. "Of course not. It’s just that the sooner you finish with the story, the sooner we can leave."

"Right," Elaine said almost laughingly. She known him far too long and far too well. Despite his rugged exterior, Norman was a big softie; she’d even caught him once with one of her romance novels.

"Lancelot was gone for several years, with neither a word nor mention of him by the heralds. The interesting thing, though, was that while Lancelot seemed to have dropped off the face of the earth, sightings of the Ill-Made Knight increased. I’d never put it together until reading these journals that they were one and the same."

"But Lancelot had to have come back," Elaine added. "Otherwise, Guinevere wouldn't have..."

She caught the gargoyle nervously shaking his head and remembered her bodyguard. She was skating on thin ice with this subject.

Arthur continued in a lower voice, "Lancelot was the Queen's champion. Even away, he served the queen first and foremost."

"What are you talking about?" Elaine asked, beating Griff to the question.

"The kidnapping of Guinevere by Meleagant."

* * * * *

Lancelot, his squire, Lavaine, and his page, Galahad, made their way towards the tournament at Bridgeford, the knight donning the helm of his alter ego ‘La Chevalier Mal Fet’, the ‘Ill-Made Knight’, as he continued on. The mismatched assemblage of hauberk, gauntlets and shin guards, once comical, now brought worried glances from the challenging kn